This is CRAZY!

Walaupun tiba-tiba nak jadi penyanyi,

pelakon,

alih suara cerita kartun,

kerja kat bakery,

tak pon nak tukar belajar course lain.

Bak kata Farhana Nazri, esok still kena sit exam Farmakologi jugak!

Let us be normal people again 2.

I know,

you need time.

you had issues.

but do remember, this is the life that you chose, that we chose.

It's all about tolerance, and honesty, and understanding each other.

I know we love each other.

and I hope we can fix this.

Let us be normal people again.

Like we always do.

Are you ready?

Thanks to UKM, dan pengurusan, jadual exam dipercepatkan.

Gap yang panjang jadi sikit.

Dem.

Terima kasih kepada yang terlibat.

I'm home right now.

Pagi tadi sempat ke surau SPPK dan jumpa Ayu.

Dan sempat bersama-sama keluarga Ayu ke kubur sekali. with Syikin.

Allah saja tahu perasaan dia.

Semoga roh arwah ayah ayu dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang beriman.

Al-Fatihah.

'Kat sini kita punya tempat nanti Icah, pilihlah yang mana satu'

Syikin,Oktober18,Tanah Perkuburan Segambut Dalam, sambil menunjukkan pada tanah di kubur yang masih kosong.

Bila fikir-fikir balik,kita struggle gila-gila untuk score dalam exam. Dan kita tak kisah hasilnya bagaimana, janji kita study dan boleh jawab.

Tapi,macam mana dengan mati?

Cukup ke apa yang kita ada untuk bekalan di sana? Macam mana dengan 'exam' dan 'ujian' dengan Allah?

Bila-bila masa je Allah nak panggil, bersediakah kita?

ada satu benda yang kita selalu lupa,

kita lupa tentang mati.

Satu hari nanti giliran kita

Kali terakhir saya menghadiri upacara untuk jenazah , bermula dari kafan sehingga lah ke masa di tanah perkuburan, ialah masa saya darjah 3.

Masa Tok Cik meninggal dunia.

Masa saya masih lagi tak faham apa-apa.

Bila saya lihat Mak menangis, saya mahu turut menangis, tapi tak tahu kenapa.

Well, saya masih kecik kot.

Kalau esok saya sempat ke rumah Ayuni untuk menziarah famili Ayu setelah mendapat khabar yang ayahnya meninggal dunia malam tadi, itulah kali pertama dalam 12 tahun ni.

Bila rasa kehilangan, Tuhan saja yang tahu.

Walaupun jauh sudut hati, sedar yang semuanya kepunyaan Dia.

Tak pernah menjadi hak milik kekal hambaNya.

Tapi, rasa sedih Dia saja yang Maha Mengetahui.

Berbanyak lah bersabar Ayu!

Sejak Atuk Wan tiada, saya rasa lebih fragile. Senang sangat menangis.

Tiap kali bila terkenangkan arwah atuk.

Tu semua ujian dari Nya.

Satu hari nanti giliran kita.

Average is me.

Inspired by this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ULRosL7AOpk,

thanks to Nurul.

Average may not be fame, wealth, or achievement.

But, by being average, you're not given opportunities, but you fight for it!

-Anthony Corvino, a bachelors degree candidate in political science of The Binghamton University.

The Binghamton University Events Center was filled with laughter provided by undergraduate Anthony Corvino, a bachelors degree candidate in political science, chosen to deliver the undergraduate student commencement remarks.

Corvino championed the "average" individuals out there, who aren't often in the limelight, unlike their genius fellow students. The political science major thanked his "average" mom for always sending him a package of Swedish Fish and Sour Patch Kids on Halloween, and he proclaimed his opinion that Wikipedia is the greatest innovation ever. He then urged fellow graduates to thank those who helped them get to this point in their life.

He also told his compatriots that while they may be "average," that doesn't mean they can't have an effect on the world and others.

"You aren't given opportunity," Corvino said. "You fight for it."

Corvino will remain at Binghamton to pursue his masters degree in elementary education. He has performed with the Dickinson Community Players and in Bard in the Yard and is currently the president of the Roller Hockey Club.

What comes next?

I have been thinking, a lot.

about me, about my future, about where i'm heading to next.

I've chosen this path. Without pressure. From anyone, not even my parents.

I love what i'm doing, I love what I see and what I learn every time I go to class.

I love my lecturers and admire them, and their knowledge.

It's just that i have doubts for myself.

Whether I'm good enough in this area.

Jobs opportunities?

For now,

Apa yang saya boleh buat ialah tunggu dan lihat.

Dan berdoa pada Allah.

Supaya jalan yang diambil ini benar dan baik buat saya.

Doakan yang terbaik buat saya :)