Farewell 2010

'Tahun depan kita jumpa lagi, ok?'

'Oh, maksud kau, minggu depan kan?'

Fine. Today, is the last day of 2010. Sibuk-sibuk usha blog orang lain, semua pun sibuk-sibuk menulis the last entry of 2010.

Tak lupa juga kepada orang yang cuba sedaya upaya membuatkan hari terakhir dalam tahun 2010 ni sebagai hari paling memorable yang boleh diorang buat.

Fine.

Marilah kita merenung diri sepanjang setahun ni, apa perubahan yang dah kita buat, yang dah pun tercapai. Ada tak yang boleh tick dalam wishlist or new resolution list tepat-tepat 365 hari yang lepas.

2010. 

Bila fikir-fikir, macam mana nak mengenang balik apa yang dah saya lalui, dah buat untuk tahun ni, oh, of course the best way is to read my own blog. Old blog post.

Bila baca-baca balik. Sedih pun ada, gembira pun ada.

Antaranya,

april 2010

July 2010

Oh, banyak jugak benda jadi tahun ni bila pikir-pikir balik.
Antaranya, berjaya jumpa Dr. Faisal Tehrani dan A. Samad Said depan mata. Memandangkan saya gemar akan hasil karya Faisal Tehrani,seronok masa dapat jumpa di Book Fair yang lepas.
And thanks to Nadia, yang mengajak ke RANTAI last Sunday di Balai Seni Lukis Negara.
Mendengar A.Samad Said mendeklamasi puisi, rasa macam tak percaya. Nak tangkap gambar pun berdebar-debar.

I do have a lot of regrets.
If only I do this and that. Tapi, tak guna kalau asyik menyesal.
Instead, usaha lebih lagi supaya hasrat tercapai.

2010 is another great year.Yang membuatkan saya lebih matang.
Bukan menjadi lebih tua, tapi lebih matang.

Mari tutup buku dan kalendar 2010.
Kita buka buku baru. dan buat resolusi baru.
What is my new resolution?
Tunggu esok la eh, on the first day of 2011.

Farewell 2010.

Babbling part yang ke 9

Bila dapat mesej daripada emikucheng menanyakan kalau ada hajat di hati mahukan apa-apa sempena  "Hari Kotak , (sila baca: Boxing Day) 26th December nanti, saya tak tahu nak apa. Kalau ada apa-apa yang boleh diminta. Haih, nak je jawab, as long as you come back in one piece, safe and sound, that's already enough for me. Tak perlu bawak hadiah apa-apa. (Poyo gila) But of course, takkan saya melepaskan peluang me'ngepow adik sendiri bukan?

Tak tahulah, mungkin ini rezeki saya. Dapat abang dan kakak serta adik yang bermurah hati nampaknya. Bila masuk gaji, I am the happiest girl on earth.Haha.

But then, it's not about the money that matters. Rasa dihargai, diperlukan, dan disayangi bila balik rumah. Haha. Who wouldn't want that? A total whacko? Right.

These last five days, I'm not feeling so well. Dari minggu lepas dah mula rasa tak sihat. And end up cancel important date dengan kawan-kawan. Sorry mates, we'll go next time yeah? Really sorry.
Nak buat macam mana, we did have a good plan, but Dia yang menentukan. Things don't go well as we wish for.

Okay, mood swing. mood swing. The great thing about being a girl is that you can get away by blaming it on nature. Haha. Tak tahu kenapa, I have been quite stressed out recently. So, hopefully, tak ada apa-apa yang memberatkan kepala. I just want to take things slow and easy, to start off this new semester. Just want to enjoy this new semester. Dengar ana nyanyi dan menari lagu SNSD would be pleasing. Haha. dan boleh gelak sambil tengok cerita korea dengan popo. Right, that never happens, but then since we have a thing on this drama called 'Secret Garden', that might be possible. Hehe.

So, esok akan ke RAH. Ya, i'm still at home. enjoying myself.
Tak sangka akan sedih tinggalkan rumah.
Haha, menyampah gila, rumah saya setakat 10 minit drive to faculty.
Dekat gila.


Goodbye home, hello RAH.


*still tak ada idea what I want for Boxing Day T_T*

I know I have you

Tak kisah panas berdekang atau basah kuyup,

You guys are always there.

No matter what.

I love you.

Whenever things get really hard and I feel like I don't have anywhere else to turn to

I know I have you.

and I won't be in despair no more.

Thanks.

For always be there for me.

I heart my family! :)

Here we go again

New chapter begins.
In a few days, or to be exact,in the next couple of days?

So, here we go again, going through the same old routine, waking up in the morning with heavy heart, wishing the lecturers will be good enough to postpone or just cancel today's class. Having a mug of hot milo, and while waiting for your friends to be ready to class,you kill the time by reading headlines on the internet. Whether it's KOSMO or the star, anything that can give you the idea of what is going on the other side of the world.

Same ol' same ol' routine.
Well, I only have 3 semesters left.
Just exactly 3 semester, to go through this same old routine.

However, i'm looking forward for this semester.
It will be good though, going to class and learn something new everyday.Better than sit at home doing absolutely nothing.
It's the least I can do, for now.
Oh c'mon, this is the time where we get paid for just being a student.
Tak kisahlah you're a JPA scholar ke, PTPTN ke, PAKMAK ke, dah kerja nanti, you have to work for the money. kan?

Good luck and all the best friends!


"Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right." Oprah Winfrey

Malu itu perlu

People who know me should be aware of what kind of person i am.
I am not the kind of person who show my love,appreciation or gratitude through words.
I am not good at words.
May never be, kot. Haha.

I fail  miserably to put my own feelings into words.


'Words can never describe how thankful I am to be one of your friends, friend.'
Saying it right at your face lagi bagus kot.haha.not trough IM!hehe.

Songs and memories

Pernah tak rasa bila dengar certain lagu tu, korang akan terbayangkan certain incidents that happened, something like bila dengar lagu A, korang teringat masa korang berkawan dengan B.
Lebih kurang macam tu la kiranya.
Yang membawa maksud, lagu-lagu ni ada signifikan penting sebab  feelings at that time dan mungkin mengingatkan korang kepada one of the main highlights in your life. Or simply, certain lagu tu boleh mengingatkan korang kepada benda-benda yang remeh tapi korang tak tersangka akan teringat kan lagu tu.

Cinta Sakti,Def-Gab-C
Lagu ni yang sememangnya lagu yang banyak kali diputar-putar masa dengar ERA zaman sekolah dulu.
Kalau naik bas Che' Chom, mesti ada lagu ni. Masa tu ERA tengah mula nak naik. Hari-hari pun mesti ada lagu ni. Tak pun lagu Gadis Ayu-Black Dog Bone.

Haha. So, bila dengar lagu ni, automatic saya akan segera teringat masa naik bas, muka busuk, tudung putih dah jadi ala-ala kelabu, dengan kaki atas seat bas. Teringat zaman-zaman konon-konon kamceng dengan Che' Chom bila ditugaskan kena kira berapa orang dalam bas, cukup ke tak.
Bajet-bajet macam ketua geng bas sekolah.Haha.

Wherever you will go -The Calling
Lagu feveret masa sekolah ni. Haha. I was so in love with the vocalist. Masa ni saya sangat layan semua rock band yang ada, Puddle Of Mud, Creed, Hoobastank. Semua pun layan. Masa zaman sekolah ni, lirik semua lagu kat radio pon tahu. Missy Elliot, Stacie Orrico, dan mana-mana kakak-kakak serta makcik-makcik hollywood yang menyanyi, saya tau punya la. Haha. Sampai satu tahap, rasa bosan.

Teringat masa kena gelakkan dengan kawan-kawan sebab suka Yellow by Coldplay. Masa tu saya Form 1. Hah, terbukti sekarang Coldplay sangat cool dengan lagu-lagu yang super cool.

Between the lines- Sara Bareilles.
I was sooo into this song. Masa first year, end of semester one.This song was on my playlist for months. Tapi, atas certain incidents yang berlaku masa tu, terpaksa kurang-kurangkan dengar lagu ni. Kalau tak mesti teringat that feelings masa tu. Hoho.

Starlight- Muse
Bila dengar lagu ni, saya teringatkan KMJ. Automatically. Sebab masa tu ada Battle of Bands. Kot. Tak ingat apa nama pertandingan tu. What makes me remember it so much is that, that certain band yang nyanyi lagu ni dah officially murdered lagu ni dengan kejamnya. Haha. Tak best langsung!

Kenangan Terindah- Samsons
Masa kat KMJ jugak, ramai-ramai nyanyi lagu ni masa last dinner satu KMJ. It was cool sebab tengok kawan-kawan saya yang berbangsa cina menyanyi bersama-sama. And diorang hafal! And it was 'kenangan terindah'!

Hey Soul Sister- Train
Teringat masa karaoke ramai-ramai dengan budak2 9-18 masa second year. And of course, sebab lagu ni ada dalam video yang kawan saya buatkan masa 21st birthday!

Lagu untukmu-Meet Uncle Hussain
I heard this song masa matrik. Mula-mula I thought lagu ni macam one of the song yang sangat tak best, memekak kan telinga. Tapi, Syaz berjaya membuat saya suka lagu ni. Haha. and now, saya yang suka kat Azlan & the typewriter. Everytime I listen to this song,teringat kenangan study sama-sama, hari-hari, like every night, dengan Syaz. Makan megi tomyam yang pekat gila, buat air milo, Kopi Radix cair. Haha. Those days!


Oh, that's why kita dengar lagu kot. As they bring back bitter sweet memories that you have. So that you remember those memories everytime you listen to them. :)

When the ride gets rough you got to carry on

Nombor-nombor tu tak menentukan apa-apa.
Huruf-huruf tu tak juga menentukan apa-apa.
They're nothing?

Not really, they are something.
and I will start to realize about how REALLY important and crucial is those numbers to my life.

When I start looking for a job
bila saya mula fikir kenapa saya bukan Kar Hau/Nutri atau pun Siew Fen/Nutri.
Just exactly how I felt when I was applying for university. Kenapa la result tak macam tu, tak macam ni. Kan senang semua boleh pilih.
Haha.
Tapi, bila fikir balik, bukannya saya tak mencuba, tak berusaha.
In fact, I did, give everything that I could. So that I have no regrets.

But they are not everything.
That my whole life depends only on it and nothing else matters.

Somehow, I know my life could be really hard when the day comes.
When the day comes, I know I'll be in huge mess.
Walaupun sekarang saya selalu berlagak cool dan optimis tak kira bila apa-apa berlaku. Saya tahu nanti saya akan jadi sangat gelabah dan mengalami heart palpitation, tachycardia, u name it.

But deep down inside,
I know, He has his plan ready for me.
and I don't have to worry and thinking about that day.
Until that day finally arrives.

So, I just have to carry on.
When the ride gets rough, I have to carry on.
Life goes on.

"So I try to hard to keep the rhythm of a train
Rolling right along 
When the ride gets rough you got to carry on"

dan saya menjadi tenang kembali.
Sebab saya percaya akan ketentuan Dia. :)

and this song really fits this situation :

Some days I feel like crying
It don't matter if it's rain or shine
I feel like my heart was broken
At least a million times

Some days I wake up dreaming
Feels like I've never even woke
I answer life's big questions
As if it's one big joke

Maybe it's too soon to be sure
But I really do believe that someday 
We're gonna have it all
So I try to hard to keep the rhythm of a train
Rolling right along 
When the ride gets rough you got to carry on
Carry on

Some days I feel like singing
I sit back and just groove the day away
Maybe pick up a guitar 
And play what I want to play

Maybe it's too soon to be sure
But I really do believe that someday 
We're gonna have it all
So I try to hard to keep the rhythm of a train
Rolling right along 
When the ride gets rough you got to carry on
Carry on

Today I feel like laughing
Seems to be no reason at all
And if the world stops spinning
I'm not afraid to fall


-Jeremy Kay, Have it all.

I can't believe I have to say this out loud

Ok, I know some of you will not believe that finally I have to admit that :

Korean drama or songs, or whatever korean wave they call is highly DESTRUCTIVE!

They drive you crazy for waiting until the latest episode to be uploaded.
All you wanted to do is to watch the drama over and over again because you are soooo touched by the whatever so-called-romances and funny-yet-weird-teary eyes of the beautiful heroes.
and it gets worse when you could care less about the things that happen around you.
you just can't get enough of them that you want to see them every second and everyday.
This is SICK!

Sekarang baru faham kenapa Abah cakap jangan layan sangat cerita korea masa tengah gila 'Autumn In My Heart' dulu.

U can be crazy about them, but, chill lah!
P/s: just so u know, it's not me who's having this sickness.

Simplicity works best for me

I don't go for brands, as always, not into Prada, Guess, DKNY or whatever it is. Which is why, I don't go all excited bila kawan dan kakak saya seronok menunjukkan barang-barang branded mereka.(however, i'm happy for them) But, I'm not against branded stuff either. Even if I was offered a free gorgeous Debenhams' blouse, of course, I'll grab it immediately.
I do believe that brand goes along with quality.
If I have all the money in the world, of course I would never hesitate to go and look for brands.
But in my case, unfortunately, I don't have the ka-ching.
and I choose simplicity, which I think works incredibly well with me.

For those who know me, they would understand how do I look normally outside, even when I hang out with dear friends at Pavi or KLCC.
I'm the girl without make up, no eyeliner, mascara, eye shadow or whatsoever.
I don't fancy all the girly stuff like bangles, necklaces, rings.
I'm still using the worn-out MOMOE handbag which I bought three years ago.

As long as I look okay(accordingly)and I feel okay,
that's just OKAY for me.
after all, Islam itu sendiri bersederhana kan?
:)

This is especially for 'You-Know-Who'

I'm happy when you're happy.
I smile when I read your blog.

Is he the right one for you?
No, you are still looking for the answer.
Meaning, you just don't know, not just yet.

Take your time.
Take all the time you need.
and find out what you really NEED.

If he is, then I wish you all the happiness in the world.
 and  a special VVIP table for me!
haha!

If he is not,
there's plenty of good HUNKS out there.
:)


NO WORRIES!