A grownup is a child with layers on

The picture that I'm having right now is freaking me out.
Picture of what I'm becoming to be.
Which is, an adult.

How much differences would it make when I'm no longer a teenager.
How big the responsibilities that I'm going to carry on my shoulder as an adult.
The differences, the distances that would slowly take place, among friends whom I deeply in love with.

Soon, real soon, my life is no longer revolves around me and my friends,
Soon, I'll be on my own, pursuing what I've always wanted to be.
and none of my besties will be around, laughing, sharing, shedding tears,gossiping and doing silly things together.

And life will be so much different from now.

Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves... for growing up.

and dear friends,
I shall be ready till the day come.
the day when I'm going to miss you guys damn much.



though I already did :(

It's the cycle, people.

It is the time of the month.

So, kalau ada relatives or kawan yang berjantina perempuan beremosi, sila maafkan mereka.
Sebab, when it's that time, they just happen to be like that.
and that including me. of course.
And do not worry, it will be over soon.

really soon.

Campus Election. PRK?
Dah habis. and as an observer, not involving with any parties, I can only vote for whom I think would carry out their responsibility in representing our voices.

Unfortunately, sebijik macam senario politik di Malaysia, there's this Blue and White parties.
Masing-masing cuba menegakkan kesungguhan nak memimpin dengan bermanifesto, nak tunjukkan masing-masing hebat.
Hantar mesej ni, hantar mesej tu.
Fine.
I don't give a damn which party you are representing,but, as long as you do your job, and walk your talk,
that's already good for me.
So, bila ada gaduh-gaduh or keje mengeji di alam facebook dan alam nyata oleh penyokong parti yang agak fanatik dan menjatuhkan imej calon serta parti, itu dah macam menconteng arang di muka parti.
Tak ke?

But then again,
it's politics.

Tak kisahlah tampuk pemerintahan jatuh pada tangan siapa pun.
Let's call for a change.
If they couldn't make any changes for this term,
then we're not going to vote for them again, kan?



Aku undi siapa?

Undi anda bukan lagi rahsia.

Aku tak puas hati

Aku tahu aku perempuan.
Aku faham apa perasaan perempuan.
Mejadi perempuan.
Dan walaupun aku suka nak mengaku konon macho, dan tak suka berlaku feminin,
tapi aku sedar, fitrah aku adalah menjadi perempuan.
Seperti apa yang Allah jadikan.

Aku tahu perempuan ada banyak emosi.
Aku tahu perempuan tu lemah dari banyak segi kalau nak dibandingkan dengan lelaki.
Aku juga perempuan, Aku tahu apa yang kau rasa.

Tapi, bila kau mengadu domba berganda-ganda di alam maya mahupun alam nyata, kau cuma merosakkan imej perempuan-perempuan lain di muka bumi.

'Sedih'
'Kecewaaaa ~~~~~'
'Dia tak layan akuuu,huhuhuhuu'

Come on!
Perempuan tak selemah itu, kau tahu?
Aku bukannya wanita besi, mahu berlagak kuat, mahu menunjukkan aku setaraf dengan lelaki, baik emosi mahupun tenaga kerja.
Cuma, bila kelemahan kau, kau tayangkan dengan jelas dan nyata, dalam kadar kekerapan yang sangat tinggi di hadapan orang ramai, aku jadi meluat.

Tak pun, kau tak tahu apa fungsi social network itu sebenarnya.
Kau meraih simpati di sana-sini. Kau tak punya kawan kah untuk bercerita? Atau ahli keluarga yang memahami?
Ataupun kau lupa wujudnya perkhidmatan SMS dan juga panggilan telefon?
Yang dapat memberikan kau kelebihan yang mereka namakan privasi?

Walaupun aku boleh berbuat-buat bodoh dan tak nampak, kalau dah kerap sangat, semua orang pun naik menyampah kan?



Cukuplah.


Aku doakan kau lebih kuat dari segala segi.

Either death, or freedom

Hati mana tak sakit kalau tengok perilaku kejam manusia. Sekejap, mereka bukan manusia, tapi mereka binatang.
Hati mana tak sedih bila manusia bermati-matian menginginkan keadilan, tapi si tua bangka yang sempurna lima panca indera hanya memekakkan telinga membutakan mata.
Rakyat menderita, dia senang lenang bergelak ketawa ?
Kata kau, kalau kau turun takhta, situasi jadi carca merba?

Sungguh, kau lah manusia paling bodoh sekali di dunia!
Kau fikir kau selamat di dunia?
Kau fikir kuasa itu segala-galanya?

Kau lihat,
mereka tak pernah gentar!
Mereka tak pernah gusar,
kerana mereka tak lagi takutkan kau!
Atas nama keadilan, mereka bersatu hati,
walaupun mereka berlainan agama
solidariti mereka sungguh aku kagumi!

Nah Mubarak,
satu dunia memerhati,
Jangan kau ingat kuasa itu segala-galanya,
Kerana yang pasti,
ia memakan diri kau sendiri!

Nyah kau pergi!
Berambus kau dari sini!


Siapa tak marah, bila manusia memprotes secara aman,diperlakukan begini?sini dan juga sini.

Nah, kau lihat sendiri . Yang kristian melindungi yang muslim saat mereka melaksanakan solat.

Kau tunggu dan lihat sendiri.
Akan mereka perjuangkan sampai mati.
Kau lihat betapa nekadnya mereka ini.

One protester in Cairo told Al Jazeera that demonstrators would continue protesting until Mubarak steps down.

"It's either death, or freedom," he said.