Earl Gray, Rain and Collide.

It's raining cats and dogs here in KL.

And here I am. Sitting in my own room, next to the window, typing out this post, while listening to my favorite Howie Day, Collide. With a mug of hot tea on the table.

This is nice. The feeling is nice.

I know I won't have the privilege to sit down and relax for the next couples of months. I was officially murdered by deadlines last night after I received an email containing my timetable for final semester of my undergrad study. I kept telling myself that I can make it, but only God knows how nerve wracking it is to know that I am sooo left behind compared to my friends who at least at 40-50% upon completing their thesis.

Not blaming anyone but only myself. Things got out of control and didn't go according to plan. And I can't find any reason to justify my situation right now.

Now, I'm trying so hard to keep telling myself that I can do this. Being positive is the least I can do for now.
Though I only have 20% left for optimism.

Shoot.

Seriously,shoot.






So, today, all I want to do is to live in this moment. Enjoying my tea, delay and forget all my worries for a while. At least until Monday.

Pray for me. Aku nak grad jugak weyhhhhh!

Ain't that kid anymore

Childhood has always been the greatest memory I've ever had. Bila adik beradik semua masih ada di rumah, sepanjang masa. Masa ramai-ramai bersempit masih tidur dalam satu bilik. Masa main Dash Yankuro sama-sama. Main hujan sama-sama. Masa kena pau dengan abang sendiri sebab kena bayar untuk baca komik Dragon Ball. Masa kena ejek sepanjang masa  kecik-kecik dengan Nurul. Masa 'Cengeng' was my second name. Haha.

Those good old time.

Then, things changed. We had our own ambitions. We went into separate ways. Schools, college, universities.
In other words, we grew up.

We no longer spend our precious time together that much. It wasn't so easy as we have our own lives.
One is now married. One is now having his own lives. Soon,  in the future, he'll have kids, and then it will be his turn to become an old man.

And we no longer be that kid anymore. Dah tak main hujan dengan awning rumah warna merah yang bocor dulu. Dah tak ada main seasonal games dekat taman, layang-layang, gasing, guli. When cyber pet took place, social interaction was murdered by technology. In the name of globalization.

And now, we grew up. We're reaching the age of 20's.
We have to think of assignments, workload, exams, and soon, we've to think about car, houses, spouses, kids.
Not fun stuff. Being adult is no fun at all.

Air dicincang takkan putus. With our own family pun kita akan go separate ways, ini kan pula dengan kawan2.
But hopefully, every now and then, mesti ada time with family. Always.


"we need to put our full hope, trust, and dependency on God. And God alone. And if we do that, we will learn what it means to finally find peace and stability of heart. Only then will the roller coaster that once defined our lives finally come to an end. That is because if our inner state is dependent on something that is by definition inconstant, that inner state will also be inconstant. If our inner state is dependent on something changing and temporary, that inner state will be in a constant state of instability, agitation, and unrest. This means that one moment we’re happy, but as soon as that which our happiness depended upon changes, our happiness also changes. And we become sad. We remain always swinging from one extreme to another and not realizing why"




I pray for my inner state to finally be able to find peace and stability. Insya Allah. One fine day.

cerita lama

Dulu-dulu, masa sekolah SRA (sek rendah agama), ada seorang Ustazah ni. Ustazah Salina kalau tak salah. Seingat aku, dia mengajar khat masa aku darjah 1.Anyway, antara benda yang paling aku suka masa sekolah dulu ialah Ustazah Salina.

She's very soft spoken, lembut and the most important part was her story telling session.
Kalau kitorang dah siap salin khat, ustazah akan offer nak bagitau cerita.
Semua orang tertunggu-tunggu cerita ustazah. Termasuklah aku. Aku masih ingat melalui ustazah la aku dengar banyak kisah nabi Muhammad s.a.w.
Antara kisah Jibrail sampaikan wahyu, dan yang paling aku ingat sampai sekarang, kisah Israk Mikraj yang ustazah ceritakan.

Ditambah dengan subjek Sirah yang kitorang belajar masa sekolah since darjah 1.
Sejak kecil lagi dah belajar mengenal siapa Rasulullah s.a.w. Nanti dah besar kalau korang ada anak, silalah berbuat demikian, ye?

Post blog 'Cinta kepada lelaki ghaib' oleh Ustaz Hasrizal dalam blog beliau makes a lot of sense to me.
It's true. Kita punya pelakon2, pemain bola sepak, penyanyi pujaan yang duduk nun jauh seberang sana, cakaplah apa sahaja tentang nama penuh, anak bini, asal mana semua pun kita tahu. Jadi tak mustahil kita boleh sukakan orang yang tak pernah kita terpandang, dan berjumpa.

Jadi tak mustahil kita yang telah dididik sejak kecil mengenal kekasih Allah, Muhammad bin Abdullah.
Tak mustahil untuk rasa cinta boleh hadir untuk kasih dan rindukan Rasulullah s.a.w yang tak pernah kita jumpa.

Selawat dan salam ke atas junjungan nabi.

Semoga kita sentiasa mencontohi dan mengikut sunnah Rasulullah s.a.w.

Nasib baik ada TV Alhijrah sekarang. Baguslah, banyak input. :)

Back on track.

Bila Allah nak uji kan, senang je. Seminggu Dia berikan cuti yang bermakna untuk aku. Dan seminggu kemudian, Dia uji aku dengan musibah dan sakit. Ni baru sakit sikit, tak terbayang orang yang sakit kanser ke ataupun sakit2 kronik yang lain.

Masya Allah, kuasa Allah. Tak siapa dapat halang.

I've never been this sick before. But one should never complain when one fall sick.So, I should never complain. Allah turunkan sakit sebab Dia sayangkan aku, :) How cool is that.

Alhamdulillah, I'm feeling better now.

Hoping to get back on track now, settlekan benda yang delayed, one thing at a time.

For my dear family who's always there for me, taking care of me, I have nothing but  thank you. Cuma Allah saja dapat balas jasa.

Dear friends, thanks for your dua'. May Allah bless you too.

 Health is wealth.