Semoga selamat semua

I didn't attend last lecture for my last semester of 3rd year. Bad headache. Nasib baik ada kawan-kawan baik belikan panadol ( stok dah abis), ada tukang urut ala Bali dan yang tolong belikan makanan. Thanks korang. Memang macam tu la selalunya, dekat-dekat nak exam mula pening, or maybe just PMS.

So, lecture dah habis. Study week dah start, and exam lagi seminggu je. And masa-masa ni la assignment mula bertimpa-timpa. Nasib baik dah 90%. So, boleh lah nak concentrate dekat study.

Will be going home right after this.  yeay!

Semalam, I had this talk with Popo. Sampai tengah malam. Dah lama tak borak lama-lama dengan budak tu. The thing is, we talked about death. In the middle of the night. Quite scary. Haha. But then again, all living things will die eventually.

Tula, bila pikir-pikir balik, kita beriya-iya struggle gila gila untuk exam. We keep saying that life is a test. Kita tahu hidup ni ujian yang Tuhan bagi, tapi sejauh mana we take life seriously like exam? Kita tak tahu berapa banyak kita dah skor dalam hidup ni, berapa banyak dosa, berapa banyak pahala. Tak ke kita nak kejar dean's list? Nak dapat yang terbaik so that dapat tempat yang terbaik, dapat kerja best. And the same goes to life, nak kejar dunia dan akhirat, untuk dapatkan tempat yang terbaik masa kat sana. The real Day of Jugdement nanti,  are we really ready for that?

Hoh.

Okay, tu je. Buat semua yang nak menghadapi final, All the best. Kita bagi yang terbaik, result semua benda tu pikir kemudian, tu bukan urusan kita kan? :)

Good luck korang !

this is how it feels

Budak kecik fascinated dengan air pancut*comel giler*

and Yesterday was the celebration for her birthday.
Thanks to our event planner, that would be Nadia Zambri, for the cake, coffee and photographer. Kami hanya menyumbangkan wang saku sahaja. Kalau kau tak ada, tak adalah semua ni.*sila jangan melambung tinggi*

It was fun. Lepak, relax, seronok je. Birthday celebration bertemakan pink di KLCC park was as sweet as Amalina. Well, dia kan budak baik-yang -tak sampai-hati-nak-dibaling-telur-masa-birthday. So, she deserves yang sweet-sweet baik-baik ni. Haha.

Jadi, Dear Amalina Dz,

walaupun post ni lambat sehari* sorry*.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
semoga dipanjangkan umur dan murah rezeki hendaknya, dan dilimpahkan rahmat oleh Nya. Moga cepat-cepat berkahwin.Moga berjaya dunia akhirat. Moga menjadi baker terkenal sebab sangat berbakat. Moga yang baik-baik sahaja. :)

*masih tiada kata nama.haha. itu yang special.*

Birthday girl yang bajet2 ala-ala girl scout tu.haha.

Surat untuk yang tercinta

Buat insan yang dah terlalu banyak berkorban,
jiwa dan raga sejak aku dalam rahim lagi

Buat insan yang tak pernah jemu-jemu mengasihi,
walaupun aku selalu menyakiti

Buat insan yang selalu percaya pada diri ini,
walaupun aku sering putus asa dan lupa diri

Aku ada satu janji. Yang tak mungkin aku mungkiri sampai mati.
Biarpun aku tak sehebat yang lain, biarpun aku tak sebijak yang lain, namun, sampai akhir nanti, akan aku sentiasa berada di sisi. Dan akan kukerah segala kudrat yang ada,  untukmu nanti. Takkan aku lupa jasa dan bakti. Hanya Tuhan yang Maha Mengetahui.


Kau sebahagian besar jiwa dan ragaku. Kau sebahagian besar cintaku.
Terima kasih atas segala-galanya.
Kau ku sayang dan cinta sampai akhir nanti.

Happy 52nd birthday MAK! :)

Buat homosapien yang kononnya membebel

Dear ET
                                                  Happy birthday~

Terima kasih sebab selalu ada walaupun kadang-kadang jauh di mata.
Terima kasih sebab menjadi kawan yang selalu bagi sokongan positif.
Terima kasih sebab sentiasa ingat dan tak pernah lupa.

Dear ET,

Knowing you is my great pleasure.
and do stay true to yourself,
and always be strong!

*sedih la baca blog zati! :( *



I always felt that the great high privilege, relief and comfort of friendship was that one had to explain nothing.  ~Katherine Mansfield

Change for good

Things changed.
What can I say?

'Tak tahulah'
'Aku tak tahulah'

I'm starting to hate myself for not really knowing what is actually there in my heart. For never really have the answer, the truth, or my own desire in life.
Ask me anything, and I would assure you that my answer would most probably be,
' I don't know and not gonna give a damn about it'

I just realized that. I know I have been so emotionless. Like a dead man walking. And not really have the excitement in almost anything that I've been into. And I don't know what I have turned into. I wouldn't call myself as a human, a normal human being.


Where is the excitement? My enthusiasm?

Really, I need to find it. I feel sorry for my friends, my family, for all the people around me. For giving you no expression, no excitement, no enthusiasm. I have been that person for such a long time that I don't know how to find or getting myself change into someone else who I would gladly turn into.

The process of self-discovering is still on-going. I need to find me. The thing that will excites me, in any way. Other than bloody food (damn, I have put on weight).

Well, change for a better me do sounds good.

At least for me.